Ever have a day

during which you simply could not locate your ambition? I've had that day. There were "smart things" I was going to do, and "smart things" I was going to write, and whatnot. Not everyday is meant for "smart things" beyond cleaning the flop, reorganzing the phone number list, petting the cats, watching moonrise, and making a pile of all the "smart things" I am going to do tomorrow. These are days when it's hard to remind myself that I don't really have to accomplish something every single day. These are days when getting good at just being is a little tough, and once that's pushed through, can be about counting beads and breathing and being. Remember that. In this culture of endless doing, not-doing can be a form of self-defense. Just for a day.